devi

[deviance]

From the darkness comes light and from the light comes shadow, forever tangled in the battle of what truly is good and evil.

Love brought me to the darkness, love of another troll. Love so strong it could not be broken even by death… or could it? The darkness wraps around my honed warrior body like a protective mother, clinging and calling my name. Karji, yes Karji is my name, and Japha is hers.. my passions filled for her, for the touch of her for the bite of her teeth into my flesh as we mingle. But at the end, love this love that was so strong was questioned... was this love or passion? I ache for her but I do not understand.

She smiles at me and I know what is right.. the first step of my madness begins.. I rely on her.. I follow her to the darkest of rituals..

"They are just humans.." she smiled and handed me the sacrfical knife.. the woman was trembling, she lay naked in the middle of the blood symbol and i slice deep into her belly watching the blood and seeing the organs almsot explode out of her, hearing the mix of the screams of the woman and the laughing of my mate... Japha takes the blood from the screaming woman and rubs it through my snow white hair.. rubing the blood deep to the scalp.. I felt a sence of power.. but part of me is screaming to run... my coward is telling me to run.. a coward i shall not be.

I have taken many of the disbelivers of the fire lord and placed their blood in my hair.. their souls trapped in this endless loop of death.. and soon i shall show my mate I am not weak

the fire lord brings me to my knees and makes me swear unto him and not Japah.. He lifts the illusion that was japah, a succubus. My eyes are locked onto this monster as my mind takes in this evil, as my mind begins to crack. "You" I whispered almost venomosly, she does not speak a word and simply looks down, my hands tighten a burning hate begins to boil over in my mind.

"Kill the one that has denyed you the one that has tricked you, seek vengance" Whispers the dark lord into my head.. his voice seems to be so far away.. but yet so right.. she stood there shaking peering at me begging.. my hammer flys from my back and right into her chest.. she looks me in the eye as tears stream down her now succubus eyes as she falls and disapears, I let out a roar and that is when my heart began to shatter.

into the darkness I fell but further yet I have to fall, with my rage and hate I bring chaos and death to my brothren, I bring death to the orcs and slay the children while they sleep. I am a warrior of my lord, the only thing that is true.. the fire lord.

I hone my body further, the burns are the embrace of the fire lord, I am the living embodiment of death itself, my own darkness clings to me and I refuse the light. Humans, elfs, gnomes, trolls, tauren they all didn’t matter.. none of them mattered. My fiery hammer has taken the souls of many, but it will not for long…

I have been defeated.. a troll a insane troll, that hops about in battle screaming some inane battle shout He bore no colors of any clan, nor any alliance.. he at the end was the one to destroy my hate.. destroy the darkness around me.. I try .. to fight it.. but my eyes close.. and I have grown weak.. the fire lord leaves me .. a shell of a troll. Only the burns and muscles remained of what once was. And out of the pit of Blackrock I am taken from...

"Chew know, chew trolls are de easyest. cher souls shattered seprated inta two diffrent veiws of life. One part of chew wishes fer ah betta life" With that I use what strength i have and spit in his face, he just laughs. "Chew will learn, littun." With that my vision grows black and I fall into sleep.

I awaken and wince as I see the light tumbling through the huts large window, the hammock under me has tangled my body up and I feel dizzy and for the first time in a very long time.. weak

The crazy troll with his spasms of colors grins widely at me “Ahh mon chew be awake! Excellent and good morning to chew! I have provided chew wid a breakin of cher long time fastin.” He offers a small bowl of green.. things I wince at it disgusted

The odd little troll, his hair was very little but was snowy white stares at me “Chew been awaken ma broda!” he flips backwards and offers me a banana “chew can tink on cher own again! An chew shall be brought ta be tested”

I snarl and roar out “I need no tests foolish little troll do not test my strength for I shall crush you” I felt a wave of weakness hit me again forcing me to lay down as the old troll laughs

“Chew not goina crush nothin! Chew” he squatted next to me his large green eyes staring into me hard, “must tink of what chew are.. chew are not what you tink chew are.. you are not death, chew are not fear.. chew are a troll! An protectin da trolls need!” he grinned at me stupidly.. I tried to hit him.. but I fell to the floor of the hut.

I wince as this odd little troll grabs me and drags me out into the sunlight I felt the searing heat pour onto me, but not the one that I had welcomed for so long.. it was the heat of the sun.. the troll cackles and throws me into a pool naked.. I try to swim.. I try to move my arms but.. nothing.. and all I can see through the crystal blue water were snakes… thousands of snakes.. and they all swam to me.. surrounding me.. crushing me.. constricting my body as I release the breath I have held my lungs begin to burn but .. the voice was stronger.

“Do you not feel me? Do you not wish to feel the light again? Your soul troll, has been destroyed.. your soul is shattered..” some how I felt truth in this hissing of snakes.. all seem to speak as one “but I shall bring you back.. I shall keep you together, but serve me you must. Serve me for the greater good and you shall be reborn!” the snakes crushed my body further.. I felt my muscles growing weak “but.. I shall take away your strength, for your own pride lead to your falling.. another strength you must find.. you shall not forget this moment.. but anything before shall be destroyed, for you are a new soul reborn by me” The world turned black..

I woke the next day… my mind.. I felt my mind leaving.. I felt my mind forming as a whole.. I brought myself up and walked outside.. the sun shining down upon me.. for the first time.. was it? I looked upon the beaches and saw the beauty that was never there before, or was it always there and I was blind?

The troll smug in the fact of my confusion walked up with a chicken and grinned widely “do chew know what dis is?”

“breakfast” I replied as my stomach rumbled in protest, and the next moment all I remember is the blinding pain on my head “No chew fool dis .. dis is a mighty chicken! Her wisdom surpass what da wisest of trolls are. Dis chicken can see da simple beauty of everyting, dis chicken is not proud, does not want powa, just simply lives.. dis chicken I give to chew..”

I took the chicken and looked at it.. it simply just.. clucked…

I walked outside.. and down the beach.. the bandages cover my blistered and bleeding face, my contenplation is deep but about nothing.. I had no past, I could not remeber how.. socity.. or people worked any longer.. what was this curse?

That night I slept.. And my dreams were of the demon lord.. but.. I had been awaken.. my eyes opened and all I saw was fire and brimstone, my heart my soul.. was awakened and I laughed.. and spit in his face.. the last words I remember before I woke was… deviance!

[deviance]

I stumbled through alot things, valley of trials the wise one called it.. and to the valley of trials was where i went. My now blue eyes scanned the large den and i clutched onto cluck and petted her. I felt nervious, my troll ears wiggled a bit in anticipation and I ran into the largest thickest orc ever seen. He laughed at me his teeth blackened from obvious dental denyial.

"They get smaller and smaller by the day!" he roared out laughing as he grabbed me and drug me off to the fittng room..

plate, leather, mail was to heavy for me.. I felt my body heaving and tired from just trying on anything! Pinwheel as they call him.. took away cluck.. and i thought i would cry but i did not.. i stood there tall in my cluck trunks that the wise one had given me and waited..

"your not a d**n warlock, you just hurt people when you try to heal um.. your worthless.. try the mages quarter.. course you look dumb too" pinwheel chuckled and picked me up and flung me in the direction of the mages quarters.

I did quite well.. but i couldnt cast a fireball to save my life.. fire seemed to trouble me.. so ice it was

Time passed and every night I remebered the goddess' words.. serve her.. but how? I was just a weakling now mage.

It was time for me to move on past the valley of trials, into the barrens they call it.. but it didnt seem to barren.. animals anywhere.. dangriousl scary large animals.. the words still strong in my mind my head down low i walked into town..

I was still thinking of it when i got knocked over by a troll, i peered up and saw it.. the double twined snakes.. they almost seemed to come alive and look at me hissing.. the words were to strong in my mind

This is the first day I lived the rest of my life.. I meet littladdy odd troll, but fun.. i begged her for entrance into the .. voodoo queens.. she reminded me i should be a slave in the clan for i was male. I just simply nodded and obeyed. There was another male, zebriz he taught me some of the ways.. but the matron was shiiva.. tall as the mountain and cold as ice she taught me. And a good slave i was

[deviance]

My memory had been taken, exept for the day of clensing, I remebered nothing of my past, how old i was and how I was suppoed to act in socity. So.. the world was new to me.. again

I was treated as a child, abused like any other slave, made fun of becuse of my obvious lack of muscle and to top it off I was slightly shorter then the rest of my troll brothern.

I worked long and hard, day by day defending the senjin village were the wise one was. Strengthing, and sharping my mind and not my lack of muscle. Every day was a new learning experance..

One day by preaching the goddess i met a young and very nice orc, warrior by obviously looking at her. Her name was kimdreg, she belived not int he goddess but the smashing of heads.. but her heart, something inside me said her heart was pure and her oaths were truely loyal. She grew.. she was a powerful orc female, shiiva and littladdy continued to teach me the ways of the voodoo.

After many weeks of learning, and teaching, i awoke one morning and was summoned by our matron, litladdy was standing there wearing her voodoo traditional gear.. shiiva grinned at me and i looked up at her and kneeled deeply kissing her feet. I stood still waiting, and she finaly put her finger under my chin and grined "do you know what this cermony is?" I shook my head not knowing what was going on. She smiled and told me not to move.. and i did not.. she marked me.. on the cheek.. her tusks digging deep into my skin and i winced letting a whimper come out of my mouth but i did not move.. "you are marked by me know, my slave, my property." I kissed her feet again and thanked her for the honor.

I served her, and i descovered.. I was a slave fully both my body and my mind was hers... and deep in my heart I was truly hers.. it did not take long for me to start writing with my words to impress her not my scrawny body. I wrote my first poem, it flowed out of my fingers like water..

For now,
I need not feel isolation
I need not feel desolation
For your memory lies within
When an era of memory does begin

My heart salivates at a mere thought-
dancing in my mind, I am caught
Twisted thoughts, temptations flare
Closed eyes, open mind... if I dare

I will always keep you near
In my soul you are deep and dear
The stake in my heart left a hole
Yet, it will not bleed, it remains full

In another life you may come to me
Where your true heart longs to be
Until then, the taste, bittersweet
And my heart forever skips a beat

Every night before I went to sleep.. I wrote her one, none of the poems were hard, they were true and from my beating heart.. she called me weak and snarled, she yelled at me for writing them.. but she never asked me to stop.. so i never did

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Weeks would pass, my heart grew more fond of her and I knew she was torn.. she seemed to one moment enjoy my presence and the next want to hurt me. She carried alot of weight, alot of pain, i saw this day by day. I saw her carry this and I wanted to help her..

In feralis I remeber telling her I loved her.. she ran from me.. I ran to her.. screaming out the words that seemed to flow so easly in my head.. wet tears dripped down my cheeks as I saw her flee..so much pain.. so much hate she had seen.. and I was given a clean slate.. why was I blessed and not her?

She addmitted she loved me that night and my heart grew fond of her.. fell in love with her.. again and I grew closer to her then anything else. I would die for her even if it ment killing myself..

months would pass, she loved me but she always fell to cruelty.. it was like she was torn.. until one day..

We had gone to a wedding, I was her attendant, following her in the back but just to the right in case she needed me. I was still a slave but my power had grown so much that the other clan mates respected me. During the wedding i saw that fight again, and she lead me to the cliffs of ratchet.. i followed. she turned to me those gorgious eyes looking at me even more confused then ever "you are my slave, I command you to stay at that spot, I .. am lost pet.." she whispered" my soul was already given, but I want to give you what was once mine.. but I cannot.. it is already given.." she paced and looked at me "my soul is fighting against hakkar.. but.. i cannot any longer my love" with that.. she lept off the cliff and I screamed feeling a pain of agnoy i had never felt before.. but .. I did not move..

days passed and i stood on the cliffs of ratchet.. I stood there and waited for her to come back with smiles.. or perhaps just tourcher me.. anything.. i needed her..

litladdy the new clan.. matron but she wanted to be called head priestess came on the cliffs, she touched my shoulder and i stood there tears still streaming down from days of crying.. "shes not comming back devi" she whispered to me.. and i growled and stood there "her mark... is gone from you.. the clan you are a servent too and standing here will not help" I twirled to her and snarled " i was commanded!" she grabbed my neck and i froze "by a master that is no longer living you are released frm that service!" she flung me to the side and I went back to the clan.. i was ment to serve

Every night I waited on those cliffs, for my mistress to come back, cluck stood there pecking at the ground and waiting.. Some times I would wait 4 hours... or until sunrise.. I would wait and she would come back.

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For the love of the goddess that had saved my pathetic soul, I served the clan.. weeks passed, Seyria had tried to mark me, to comfort me but she knew as much to become my master as I knew freedom. Many tried to describe it, all I knew was the service of the clan.

Addy could no longer lead. The snake goddess had abandoned her, and the clan broke into chaos. As her last wish, I was named leader.. I was no leader but a simple steward. I served the clan.. my heart still heavy with dispair, I walked the cliffs at night overlooking where my matron had disapeared and my heart hoped deeply for her return.. for her to take this confusion away.. I looked up at the moon and nodded silently as to make a deal with it.. the clan would be the rebirth of the voodoo... voodoo rebirth.. I whispered to myself. No longer voodoo queens that i once served but the rebirth of it to a stronger clan.